Well, I went to work on Saturday; all was going well, until one of the people whom I work with said to me that she did not think that I could handle the new department job on my own when her, or the other person were not there. Basically, all we do is print reports, sort them, send e-mails, and some other stuff. It is not that it is difficult work, it is just a lot of work, and I only had practically a half of day of training for it. Anyway, she said that and then she also said that just to see if I could handle it, and that she could call off on Thursday. Well, I was taken off guard and it really hurt my feelings. On Sunday, I told her that she hurt my feelings when she said that, and she didn't take it very seriously. Well, I ended up going home sick, because of nerves, yesterday I had the day off, and today I called off. Tomorrow, I am off, so what I am going to do is talk to my boss on Thursday. I guess it just makes me nervous, because said person is sort of like my bosses right-hand. I am concerned how my boss will take me explaining how I feel about the job position to her. See, it is not that the position is difficult, it is just that it is new to me, I didn't really get a lot of training (that is nobody's fault - in a way -), and I am very nervous. I was fine until said person stated that to me. It is not that I am judgemental, and I am trying not to be, but people whom I've discussed this with are telling me that she just said that because she feels intimidated by me, knows I am smarter, is a bitch (not my words) etc. Anyway, back to me trying not to be judgemental, see, she is uneducated, my same age, has a kid with a guy who is in prison, and doesn't go to college etc.
I do not mean to be judgemental, but in a way I am being so. I apologize for that, but it is somewhat difficult for me not to be.
I will talk to my boss and see how it goes on Thursday. My mom said everything will be fine and that she knows that I can handle anything life throws at me. Yet, I am still unnerved. By me, by the situation, by everything.
Also, I know that it is just a job to get me through college, but it still irks me.
Any thoughts?
I say you have a right to be upset! I would have had to bite my tung seriously when that girl said that. I've been told that as well when I got my promotion at my last job. I bit my tung and did the best job I could do. In less than six months of me having the job I had the highest sales in my departments in my district, two months straight. I showed them that I could do it no matter what. I also had very little training. In fact in my previous position the day I was supposed to be trained, they put two people under me to train them.
Spirit GoddessYou just have to ask people you trust any questions that you might have. If you feel you can do it, then damnit, you can!! You just need a little more confidence. Show this little snot that you deserve the job!!
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